Saturday, December 22, 2007

I WANNA BE MYSELF

ever since my holidays, i nv really enjoyed.
1st 2 weeks was working @ FarEast, and unpleasant incidents happened. Now i'm no longer wanna go back there.
3rd-4th week, i was working @ Apple. Pay was good, but i didn't like the culture there.
5th-7th week, (till now), i'm sick. Maybe no work to do, sick god came to keep me company.

through these weeks, something has been bugging me. i know lam and deb been asking me to join them for a gathering @ rac ho house. I know its been a great opportunity for me to meet more friends. widen my social circle. the smses, the calls, i know where they coming from. i v much wanna go also. but there's this something that i dun wanna do, i dun wanna lie to my mum anymore.

Its always against my conscience how successful i seem to have "convinced" her that i'm going to school for a camp or going for a short trip.

i wanna learn to tell her the truth and let her know and truly convinve her that i know who i'm with, what i'm doing.

Del, thanks for advising me on what i should do. u took the wrong steps to convince your parents, i hope i need not follow ur footsteps. but i will not rule out the possiblity that i will if she still doesn't give me that trust an adult should get

rac, deb, thanks for encouraging me to step out of my little world. i thought i know the world, but i was wrong. after hearing what people of our age is doing, its time i jump out of the well and do what i wanna do and be who i wanna be.

Thanks for always being there for me sisters. When is aman coming back. I miss having coffee wf u guys. and supper... and clubbing... and other ppl's chalets... and staying over @ ur house...

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

End of official lessons

Hurray! lessons r over! i got my 5.01 2day! VVV happy!

Realised that i have already cultivated some v bad habits for my driving. For example, i will turn the steering wheel with 1 hand; my right hand, n the left is left resting on my thigh.

the more lenient instructor says its ok to do so, cause the tester only interested to see whether i'm able to handle the car. The stricter instructor says its wrong to do so, although its easier to manovere the car, but i should not drive like what the qualified drivers on the road should.

I'm trying to do my best in making use of both my hands.

I'm scare of e brake now, cause the instructors do not practise it with us. Just pray for the best.

Man, i believe u can find the solution to the prob that's been bthering u, remember wat i said bout telling them early. Anyway, not much time left.
Sai, u missed the chalet! left only 3 of us in the chalet, dunno do wat but lie down n chit chat, but no worries, i dun blame u, who can anticipate the arrival of the monthly thing!!! ehehehe. take care n dun drink cold water. meet up soon.
2 weeks in apple was an eye opener for me. Got to know more ppl, professional ppl, alot of ang mo, and those strong figure heads that r leading the company towards higher grounds. only thing that i dun really like that's v realistic is that u seldom have friends once u work or should i say ppl take care of themselves only.
Maybe the difference between fef n apple is that fef is more family basded working environment, not like apple, thats more professional and US style. everything go by book.
Nonetheless, its jus a cold world out there. Satisfaction can only b found in the job only if u have a passion and friends outside of your working society as well as ur family love ones.

Had a great chalet with my family. think everyone's growing big and some; old, so the chalet nowadays is simplified. Buy lesser things, do lesser things, everyone take 5.... That's wat a chalet is for anyway! had our regular chat with mouse, and really cherish this kinship we have.

Supposed to b jobless the next few weeks till further notice. Sian! shall rot as of now.

Adious

Sunday, December 02, 2007

Motivated to work for money

Exams were over bout a month now.
Since then, life's been quite a rountine for me: Work, Eat, Sleep

Knowing that i have to depend on myself to earn my money for next 2 sems, I've got no choice but be very motivated to work hard.

Started off with FEF, working bout 2 weeks there, but due to my driving lessons, i have to work half days there.
Now i'm with Apple for 3 weeks, everyone should know y i work @ Apple instead of FEF.

I'm into my last week with them and thinking of going back to FEF is a drag, we know y too. But where else can i work to get an equivalent pay as Apple? DUNNO!

The only thing that I'm not use to is having to wake up 6.30am everyday to head to AMK. Its worst then sitting for exams!

As for driving, I've finished 19 lessons, + 2 auto car lessons. Have 2 more lessons to go, before 4 revision lessons! AHHHHhhh.... THEN ITS PRACTICAL TEST... OMG!
Really keep my fingers cross for the test. hope everything runs smooth.....

Been jogging afew days since exams over, but that's seriously not enough! many more pounds of weight to shed!~ Someone tell me wat to do!!!!!

Exam results r out too: 3Credits= A grade and 1 Distinction= AD grade.
Not bad for a start off. but i think Credits kinda easy to get! cause AD is like 70 marks and above!!!!

Must work harder next sem.
Alright, Adious

Monday, November 05, 2007

Driving

oh.... forgot to say> I MISS DRIVING!
next week will have 4 lessons! n DSL too! hope everything works out right! its my stict lao shi. so i hope he wun kpkb me not attending class for 1 month!

19 lessons to PT! worried n anxious
adious

2 papers down

how can i afford to sit in front of the computer when i have 2 more papers to go??!!!!
anyway, 2 papers down, both i believed i have over studied. But those that came out a few i could not remember the ans. but believe i will pass overall

on the way home 2day, i tuned in to 88.3fm. they were playing a contest to guess the history of sweet n sour pork! i sms to the game and guess wat, the DJ called me! wow piao! i was like taken aback, dunno wanna ans not.

but announcement of the answer was so long, by the time it was announced, i already reached home n finished my dinner, n i did not get the correct ans, let alone the touch screen remote control worth $199
hahahaah

Luck is with me anyway! hope it carries on till the end of the next 2 papers

when studying, sometimes, i can seriously focus and there r times when i will ponder bout all other rubbish issues but exams!
n in fact, i thought bout my dad n his laziness to do things himself. that made me v pissed. the feeling jus escalates when u r unable to spell out ur feelings n u cannot voice out ur opinions cause this is not the correct time to do so!
but thanks for M, he helped me focus. although his ways were not quite workable cause i ended up crying myself to bed, but still, he was there for me.
thanks.
Alright, i've put the issue @ the back of my head for this period, let me get my exams over then mayb i will address it!
but for now, its back to studies... or should i nap???

adious

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Fed Up with Myself

Finished 2.10 & 2.11 2day! cleared stage 2 before exams.
Wanted to do stimulator before my exams, so immediately after 2day's morning lesson, i went to book for "stimulator lesson". Supposed to be, but ended up no!
Feel so shit bout myself. The lesson was @ 2.10pm, so i waited for 2hrs for it.
who knows, i've booked a normal drving lesson instead of the s. lesson!
1st: i've nv drove @ 2+ before (small problem though)
2nd: instructor different (also small problem)
3rd: instructor got extremely bad breathe and got short tongue (cannot tahan talking face to face)

i learnt reversing, s n crank course. i could feel that the instructor wasn't interested to teach as he took his own sweet time to arrange the poles and drove me round n round the circuit for nothing.

Reversing is still a problem to me because i don't understand what the instructor was saying- u know: speech prob, and he was just telling me turn here n there! i just didn't know which direction i was heading to. for once! i hit the pole twice, and caused some scratches on his car! deserved it!

Taken by surprise, i cleared the S course once without mounting curb. that stupid instructor was saying how did i manage to do so. maybe i was just so sian that i wanted to get out of his car asap!
for Crank course, 2 tries, n both i made it too!

Driving shall be put to a stop from 2day till 14nov.
I've gone in the website to book the stimulator lesson, now they have the link to probe me that i am due for the lesson! waste my $59.92

Dorothy having sales from 2ml. shall head down to marina in the morning to look @ the sales! Hooray!

Monday, October 08, 2007

Finished 8 lessons and counting

Challenging...
With a project to clear by 2night and driving lessons to attend, i have to study for exams.
I feel in everyway more motivsted to drive then to study.
Although my initial plan was to drive while i am in school, i end up taking all lessons when i need not head to sch; and when i need to go to sch, i can't find slots to book! ah!!!!!

anyway, 2day's lesson was fun. the teacher pin-pointed my weakness which i will definitely have to and will improve.

1) turning left- too wide a turn
2) moving off- clutch release too fast, not enough acceleration, via versa
3)Changing from higher to lower gear- did not do so before humps, b4 turning left

Oh.... a challenge to drive at bukit batok too. Unlike ubi where roads are curvy and traffic conditions horrendous, bb has lots of human traffic. Those who don't use traffic lights! happy only cross the roads, most old folks or women with children!

I've never stopped cursing n swearing in the car, and my instructor totally agrees with me. I've been horned and i've horned. surprisingly...

Next few lessons will b back into circuit and doing crank n s course, with slopes and right turns. Will miss the public roads for awhile. lessons will end next fri where i will b hibernating at home... To STUDY of course!

alright, till we meet... take care girls
adious

A complaint letter

feels like i am a complain queen. i wrote a letter to Ministry of Environment regarding the abandoned trolleys found at the vicinity of my estate. The aim is simple: clear them away for the safety of all

To whom it may concern,
attached are pictures of trolleys that are "parked" along the roadside of Kelantan Lane; just below the Multi Storey Carpark of Blk 31.
These trolleys are seen parked there everyday and the numbers increasing by the months.
The concern is that they are situated just outside the power supply area that states " High Voltage". It is apparently very dangerous as an outbreak of fire may be caused due to the negligence of a smoker or any flammable objects.
These trolleys also cause hazards to vehicles passing by.
Thus, I hope the authorities will look into the issue and clear them before accidents happen.

alright. hope it helps

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Change of Driving Test Date

Oh, I chanced upon the pratical exam days and realised that 17/01/08 is available!!!
How troublesome it was for me to change the rest of my training days; needed to cancel my feb n mar lessons and push all of them before the 03/01/08(2 weeks b4 the exams)

i hope its enough lessons to cover, i've shifted all my lessons and now i have 25 pending lessons and have finished 5 lessons. if its not enough, pls kindly alert me once u've read my blog.

nonetheless, its extremely good news cause i need not wait for 2 extra months

Monday, October 01, 2007

Busy Busy Busy

Ever since the bus 67 issue, i've left this blog alone for sometime. Mainly cause i'm busy with driving and exams.
Actually, more like 80% on driving, 20% on studies. That's bad, but i'm aware in the near future, i will adjust back.
Driving has been fun, i justed finished lesson 4 and covered till stage 1.08. I have to cover 5.01 by 26/2 as the practical test is 11/03/08.
@ this stage, i've learnt the basic of moving off, stopping, turning left n right, signalling n cutting into someone else's lane n travelling @ 5 gear- bout 80km/hr is quite common for me.
Of course, who doesn't know how to accelerate!! a big problem that i have is that i dun really noe how to stop in time, but i will continue to try harder in the following lessons.
exams are from 30oct-9th nov. got quite abit to study, but somewhat havent started at all!! **Bash Myself**
Attended sai's birthday, although i am disappointed in the dressing of someone, because he was quite significant in this party, but as long as matters of the heart is settled n she's happy, think that's most impt!
Bless her. its great to dress up anyway. i felt good

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Earthquake

My God! Earthquake. Right after dinner. Tremor was so bad, whole family ran dwn 12 floors. Terrible.
After that, i could feel myself swaying from side to side. Its psychological i supposed.
Supposed to zzz after dinner. Did not zzz properly the night b4 actually. Cause drank coffee to keep myself awake, but to no avail. i think i only zzz 3 hrs or so.
Anyway, its over and i'm quite sure i won't do well.
only @ bout 12am b4 zzzzing last night did i realise that Rac is in Batam, immediately on my hp again and called her. she did not pick up n that made me worry, but eventually we used our ways to prove that she was safe. i had a good night sleep then.
As of now, i'm only looking @ 2 more projects, cause BB is done. So MR n DC here i come.
This is the last 2 weeks for lessons. 1 mth of study break is coming up soon and only exams, end of sem 1
so damn fast! So much so the start of entering the working society is coming closer. heehee

Adious

Sunday, September 09, 2007

A Busy and Happening Week

Hello everyone, projects kept me busy this week.
This week, i came across 4 interesting stories to share.
1: Saw Neighbour(Female) bashing up her girlfriend in her car. Les' breakup scene. Police failed to turn up after 3 times of dialling 999. Timing, midnight 1am
2: Working halfway, heard colleague talking on the phone bout suicide. Turned around n qns, Yes indeed. Sickly uncle has chosen to end his journey by sea. V drama.
3: conducted my MR focus group. Wow! Wat an experience with the guys my goodness. Their views on safe sex was so interesting and hilarious.
4: Buddy told me something drastic she did yesterday. Indeed time to do something bout her love life. Good that she's moving on. but sad that there's less a single n available guy.
Looking forward to next week, BF test on Wed, from Thu- till next Fri, will have to complete MR and DC.
So much so looking forward to the completion of projects. Study break is near the corner with driving lessons setting in, of course with part time work.... wow! Drama!

Note to Buddy: Take care of yourself at Batam!

Adious

Thursday, August 30, 2007

I PASSED MY FINAL THEORY

Wow! what a great day it was yesterday! I PASSED MY FINAL THEORY. I should say that i've played with chances. out of 50 qns, i could only have a max of 5 wrong answers. & i was only unsure of 4 qns. So i clicked: "end test".... then "PASSED" was shown. Its true when people say, things change in a split second. How relieve i was....

Projects are taking alot of my time now. Although its an obligation to finish up the work, i seriously dislike the way we work. Only discussion is like brief, and we just write down main points, after which we separate the work and each of us are supposed to look for info and elaborare on our own. It maybe the time constraints that lead us to this, but if other groups are doing it, then y cant we?

And this girl in my group, she is always working. the serious thing bout her is that her schdule is not flexible. so as project meetings are usually decided a few days b4, she jumps at us and say she cant accomodate due to her working hours. i heard from her friend that she's not short of money as her previous job paid her more than $2k n she's been working for 2 yrs. this is when friends start to realise the difference in the individual and when it happens, unhappiness or unsatisfaction sets in. I've got commented by one of my groupmates too for not agreeing to their idea. but in the end when i approached the teacher, i was correct wf my idea. maybe its differences in ppl we have to adapt and work wf.

anyway, in the next 3 weeks, a total of 5 projects to hand in. i'm finishing the 1st one 2night and the rest shall go wf the flow.

*a message to aunt mouse: life is a never-end learning process. be strong"
Adious

Saturday, August 25, 2007

End of a Busy Week, Start of Yet Another

Wow... What a week it has been for me.
Early week i started work @ fef.com, going back as part timer. With the new catalogue launch, they are short handed, and i am going broke, so since it compliments, i agreed to work with them.
Of course working is not my priority now. I did mention to my supervisor that if i need to return to sch for lessons or projects, i will just cancel my working slots.
so kinda flexible, of course i won't cancel on purpose.
Anyway, the catalogue website> http://www.fareastflora.com/

Its been a whole week of project meetings and preparation for Saturday's MR Test.
a need to multitask sucks! but friends make my life better. I've got quite prompt project mates, so we kinda meet up all the time to do project. although sometimes it can b tiring, but we finish our projects way b4 the date due. N that's good, isn't it.

I've also met up with sai in sch this week. she definitely looks the same, but she's way happier now. i can seriously feel it. its the carefree element within her that's undescriable.

Was really glad that MR test is finally over. Although, i dunno whether i will pass or not. Seriously i did not really study hard although my notes were prepared long long time ago. I even sold my photocopied textbook for some money, but i wasn't even confident of the answers i submitted!
Anyway, like as it i really worked hard, i went for retail therapy. Bought 2 blouses from Dorothy. Surprisingly, the sizes seem to differ quite abit; for one, its size 14, the other, size 20. Maybe different cutting. walked many places, and the bus ride from sch to Marina was hoggible! sit till my backside "open flower". and i saw 4 ppl today since i left sch. Shan Hua was the 1st one, his doing part time studies @ SIM, then i saw Xiao Bai @ Raffles City, and then Pris Teo and Rac Cousin Ivan @ Bugis. World's Small.

next week, life's gonna be tough with 3 project meetings and of course, the research stuff... MR, OB and BB projects dueing in next 3-4 weeks.
Wed will be my FTT retest. Oh, how unprepared i am. I havent revised since i failed the last, so wat are chances of passing this round? 30-50%? suppose so! but of course this time i'm gonna wake up for the practise!! nv will i take the easy way out, its taught me a great lesson!
thu, fri n sat will be working @ FEF.com I've missed the D&D due to my projects, so ya.. a waste.

I still did not figure out how to load pictures, but most of my pics are gone now. cause my laptop crashed on me.... Ah.... How bad can life be? hahaha

NVM, working hard enough will bring me unexpected rewards.
Adious.

Thursday, August 16, 2007

881 the Movie

Oh... Life's not that bad yesterday. Went for morning lecture> Got this guy opened the door for me to enter. I said "Thank You", didn't I? i forgot
Should i say that my lecturer has got PMS, her lecture was boring in the morning. Maybe she has not woken up yet. heehee

Anyway, i went K-box with my friends from SIM. the 6 of us + a bf. I had a great time though. After so long i went to k. Of course should i say my voice is still not bad. The low male vocal is still intact. hahaha

However, I still miss singing wf deb, she vocal is still the best, out of the ppl I sang with. I miss singing ‘jian ao’ with her. And due to long shut off from Wilbur Pan’s ‘Tell Me’, I forgot the rap part! Stupid man

Anyway, halfway through the session, my sis sms. I knew she was bringing mum to watch 881, and will not be including me cause they maybe going earlier and I could not accommodate to the time. Who knows she will be watching the show at 6.40pm, so just nice I can join them.

Luckily I went to watch. It was vvvv bagus! Very funny, full of Hokkien jokes, songs and the good n bad of life “running” Getai. Should I say Royston Tan did yet another good job in this movie? The shots were uniquely videoed.

N this 715, his damn funny also. Although his dumb, his cock> hen la, created a few laughter. And the show’s touching too, cause one of the papaya sister contracted cancer and she died eventually, and in memory of her, the other papaya continues singing her getai, and she is never alone.

A very nice show indeed. Highly recommend if u understand Hokkien.

Alright. Adious

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Failed My Advance Test

Who can answer this qns> When is your tyre considered bad? 1.6mm, 1.8mm or 2mm

I am so angry with myself, cause i failed my advance theory test. Apparently, i was quite confident, cause i took a total of 5 practices and already passed my evaluation test. & being too over confident, ME, although booked a practise before the test, did not go n attend. I told myself, "surely can one la". See la... in the end, need to spend another $6 + $2 for the test. + time, bus fare + my feelings.

I feel damn shit now la. Totally no mood. came to sch n almost fell. Tripped over a step n when i visited the toilet= wow! i strike 4D.

What a bad day.... y is my 2nd entry a sad entry???
But let's look follow to 29th august. My retest date. Hope that everything will turn out fine.

Will keep things updated.

Welcome Back

Sad to say y i took a long break from blogging. I deleted my account the last time, but forgot y!!! What a joke.
The inspiration to blog again came from Mrs Angelia Liew, when i read her blog about her prenancy and the birth of her little one.
Just wanna say that mothers are great people. They will do anything and everything in the world for their little one.
So many things have happen this half year since i last blog. there are things that were worth blogging, but i did not make an effort to set up a new account for it! hahaha

I believe being in a 9 yr friendship is really something proud n worth mentioning. I'm very happy that we have been putting in the effort to talk, listen to each other's problems and sharing each others' happinesses. at the same time, we also meet up for meals n gather.

When i was working @ FEF for a year, although it was tough, but we still managed to keep in contact. meeting bout 2 times a month, compared to about 4 times a month. But now that i'm back in sch, things are easier. hahahaha

Thanks sisters for always being there for me. Without u as my pillar of support, i will never be as satisfied as i am now. xie xie

Taking up my driving now actually. With the shock that deb dropped me with, i'm very anto into getting my license n driving my mum's car!!! hahahaha, now clearing my final theory test, n have booked all my practical lessons, with that, its just waiting before all my lessons start n before i can take my test! hehehehe

Recently my sis graduated from Uni. We did a studio photo, I felt that i looked good in the picture! so... happy to be. @ the moment, i am keeping my hair length. At least for now. And till its time, rebonding will come into the picture. n till i get my license, the glasses will go n the lens will set in. n with the diet that i'm going through, I HOPE TO GET A BOYFRIEND SOON. Hahaha
This year, i've definitely pinned my hopes on someone; someone younger in fact, but maybe his just not the one.I dunno what's on his mind, but maybe i was just being impulsed n mad!

Leaving things in God's hands may just be something i wanna do now. I've forgotten how to upload a pic, but once i recall how to do so, i will insert some pictures k.

Till i blog again, Adios.